Like most people, I think I tend to exempt myself from petty plebeian concepts like age and time. It doesn't really matter how long I've been alive, I never feel old or young, I'm just normal.
It's very distressing when someone dares to do something, like age, that throws you out of your ageless bubble. I was talking with my family earlier today, and someone mentioned my littlest brother starting high school. I can't comprehend him as a teenager. I've only recently upgraded him from age 4 to age 9 in my head. Him being a teenager throws off my entire worldview. Damn kid.
Fortunately my 5 year old sister choose that moment of existential crisis to come bounding over to the webcam and show me her toy horse. When she was first born to my Dad and Stepmom right before I left for college I was initially freaked out and felt kind of replaced by this new girl. I'd rather enjoyed my unique femaleness. The older she gets the more advantages I see to having her around. She's actually fun and will interact with me in non-video game ways. Now I see another advantage. Not having grown up with her, her age has little jarring affect on my self image. But I can use non-logic to infer that if I have a little kid for a sibling, I can't be that old. Way to be use full kid.
The idea of having younger siblings is just too strange for me.
ReplyDeleteI always thought the same thing about my little sister. Then she had to go and get married and all of a sudden I felt old.
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