Oops. I've been trying to update this thing everydayish...but as it's been almost a week and a half that obviously isn't going so well. So what have I been doing all this time?
Law school has been, well more than a little crazy. I feel so out of the loop most of the time. There seem to be all these things that everyone just somehow seems to know, and for the life of me I can't figure out how. Like hunting for summer jobs - I guess everyone started looking in early January, the real go-getters started in December. Silly me though that I should wait for my grades, that this was something that really happened in February. A lot of places have already had their deadlines. I planning on working a lot on that over the weekend and as I'm looking for an unpaid externship I hope it will be slightly less competitive. Hopefully I'll be fine, but I'm not loving the stress.
Fortunately most of my classes are fine. Not property, I really have no idea whats going on there, and the professor doesn't so much teach as wander around terrifying students and building up his own ego (ok, ok I also haven't studied as much for this one as I should). but the rest of them I actually enjoy and maybe even seem to be learning things. I also signed up for tryouts for the mock trial team. I have no idea how its supposed to work, I asked as I was signing up and they told me wonderful information about being divided into teams and what date it takes place on, but nothing on what I actually do at the tryouts. I think this another thing that everyone except me must know. So I'm more than a little nervous. But litigation is still the main type of law I'd like to practice, so at the very least it will be a good learning experience. Who knows, I may even make it.
On an entirely different note, my body keeps trying to kill me. As some of you know I've been dealing with seizures for a little over two years now. Basically every now and again my body tries to electrocute itself, and I end up flailing about and then collapsing. Well, sometimes I collapse first, but you get the idea. Overall they haven't been that bad, but last week? Last week was bad. Wednesday night I had a huge one, and they just kept coming for the next four days. I'm not really even sure what happened during those days - they're just a constant blur of shaking and weakly lying around waiting for the next one. Not the best weekend ever.
I know I should just go to a doctor, but honestly I just don't think they could really do anything. I know that there are some medicines that can help with epilepsy, but there's a huge variety, so it could take a while to find something that works and there's a great chance that they'll really mess me up in other ways that just aren't worth it to me. I'd rather be knocked out for a few hours or even a few days every now and again then constantly be fuzzy headed or otherwise incapacitated. And besides, I'm more than a little scared that the seizures are causes by something terrifying like brain cancer, and I just don't want to deal with it.
So that's pretty much my life right now. Law school sweeps in and tries to terrify me to death, and then my body electrocutes itself in an attempt to finish the job. Oh, and I also do stuff with Zach. And waste time on the internet. But that's pretty much it.
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